7.10.2010

"Hey death, I'm a fucking mess. Can you stop this beating in my chest?"

On July 1st, I experienced the feeling of impending death for the first time in my life due to my heart problems. I woke up in my room at 430am, thought I was going to throw up and it turned into 3 minutes of me feeling literally like I was dying. There was a moment in all of it where I stopped begging and praying for it to stop and instead prayed for me to just pass out and pass on, if that's what was going to happen. I was alone, I couldn't get to my phone and I was a complete mess. I collapsed every time I stood up, I lost consciousness, I smacked my face on something and I felt like I couldn't breath. I was disoriented. Luckily, it all stopped after miraculously making it from my bathroom to my kitchen (knocking over chairs and running into doors on the way) where I threw ice on my face and neck (after passing out when I first got to the kitchen) and I returned to my normal self. Needless to say, I immediately made an appointment with my cardiologist. I saw him on Thursday and he said that what I experienced was true vasovagal syndrome aka neurocardiogenc syncope and that it probably won't be the last time I go through that.

We kept talking and I told him what happened with me passing out at work, while sitting in a chair, in January. He is really worried about that, more so than anything else. SO doctor's orders:

Wear the heart monitor again, this time on a day that I work

Do a tilt table test



And then perhaps a neurologist consult, because he's genuinely worried that what happened at work was a seizure...

I also wouldn't mind a referral to an electrophysiologist. Perhaps they could take a closer look at the electrical conduction pathways in my heart and find a solution.

Maybe I need a life alert system?

2 comments:

  1. Good Lord Kristin! Have they learned anything new from the tests?
    i would invest in a life alert necklace.

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  2. I don't know anything new yet, I'll be wearing my lovely monitor again starting Thursday. I broke down last night, feeling like my heart is a ticking time bomb waiting to break for good. There has to be answers!!

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