"If I didn't have You as my Guide...

...I'd still wander, lost in Sinai
Or down by the train tracks watching the trains go by
To remind me: there are places that aren't here.
And I had a well, but all the water left
and if there was no way into God, 
I would never have laid in the grave of a body for so long..."

So I am all moved in. Emphasis on the "I" since Ryan doesn't get home until the first week of October so only about 5% of his stuff is here. Stressful? Oh yes, the whole process was. The night before the move I got off work extremely late because I had a patient that was rapidly de-compensating. I worked from 645am until 9pm with one 20 minute break, came home and didn't have any dinner. I sobbed on the phone for about 10 minutes then got myself together and finished the bits of packing I still had left. Everything after that horrible day seemed to breeze by.

Keep your eyes peeled for a picture post of the new place! Don't be surprised if most of the pictures are of my rad new dining chairs


This is what happens...

... when Nathalie comes to play

Hating on my day time reading. Critical Care Nurse, so what if its not Vogue!

Black bean tamales. YUM.

Bruiser falls more and more in love every visit.

Can I also mention that we matched that day? We got a lot of stares at Dland which I'm pretty sure were due to our smoking good looks and not the fact that we're twentysomething and wearing matching clothes :/ 

We also need to take a second to talk about the Venomous Villains collection by M.A.C. I think I died when I saw the line. I need every nail polish, at least one lipstick and maybe some eye shadows. Guh. You can preview the line here. If you're a Disney fan like me then your wallet is probably trembling in fear right now. Good luck ladies. 


Happy Labor Day, our economy sucks

Do you still celebrate labor day if you're one of the victims of America's current unemployment rates? Just a thought. Have you heard what this time in American history is being referred to as? The Great Recession.  It rhymes with the Great Depression, how creative right?

Since I'm not feeling the celebration I thought I'd take a moment to point out some of the things I've experienced lately at work that make me feel anti-laboring:
-I got not just yelled at but screamed at by a doctor for nothing. In what other work environment is this allowed?
-I messed up on a report of death. Yes, I report the death of children. No reason to celebrate that.
-Received a write up four months after the fact. All I could think when reading the paper was "I can't fucking believe someone took the time to write this up." That's how ridiculous it was.
-I asked a visitor is she was my patient's grandma. She wasn't, she was her Aunt. That's on the same level as asking a woman how far along they are when they're not pregnant.
-I screwed up my schedule and now I am scrambling/begging for someone to work for me on the weekend of my best friend's baby shower. I am also begging for someone to work the day of my best friend at works wedding. I am having no success.
-I haven't gotten to cuddle a baby in at least a month.
-I've hardly worked on my own unit due to low patient census. I miss feeling like an ICU nurse.

I am so thankful to have a full time job, to feel secure in my income. It doesn't mean that I am not affected by this recession. Nurses are being stretched, we don't have the resources and staffing that we did when I first started. I fear that my hospital will do another round of lay-offs and we will become even further stretched. Not to mention the stress of everything being about receiving reimbursement. Ugh.

What I am celebrating: My new knit headbands. In cream, grey and mustard yellow.


Dreams ---> Reality

I don't know if any of you remember this post or even this post but exactly four months ago I put in application to be a volunteer nurse with Operation Smile and have been waiting and waiting to hear back. Well, I finally got approved to work with them as a recovery nurse!!! Now I request up to three missions and hope that I get selected for one (they're only allowed to take a certain percentage of newbies). My choices:

Fes, Morocco (March 2011)

Amman, Jordan (March 2011)

Guwahati, India (February 2011)

(An OS patient on a past trip to Guwahati)

They form their teams 3-6 months before the missions so I could start hearing from them any time. If I don't get selected by December then I have to request three others. I'm sure getting on your first mission takes a while but I am willing to wait patiently!