1.28.2011

My first Diana Mini 35mm photos

I got my first 2 rolls of film developed from my Diana Mini. These are my favorites. I had A LOT of flubs. I learned quite a bit already, cropped off A LOT of heads and definitely forgot multiple times to actually WIND the film before taking another shot. A few I did as a double exposure on purpose. More often than not I just kept shooting by accident. Damn digital age. So anyhow, I feel like I had some good practice before heading to India. Woohoo! (as always click for full size)













Lets just say I won't be quitting my day job to become a photographer anytime soon but I am pretty pleased with my very first venture into the lomo world! 

1.26.2011

Fever dream

I'm going to pull a Memento, an Irreversible if you will. Taking you backwards through the last 2 weeks and hoping it all makes sense in the end.

Last night Anne and I went and saw Iron and Wine play at The Wiltern in LA. Laura Marling opened up and we were both bummed because we only got to see about 5 of her songs. Thanks traffic. I am fairly short and usually have to stand in strange spots or right in the front of a venue to see the band. I do seem to always get stuck behind the person who probably has Marfan's syndrome and last night was no exception. I literally didn't even see his glorious beard until the last half of the set when Anne and I finagled our way to the front after begging a few security guards. He has an incredible voice and an awe inspiring beard. I hadn't seen him play in well over 5 years and back then it was just him and his guitar. Last night he had not only a regular full band but also background singers and wind instruments. To be honest, I love his new songs with the full band but to hear old acoustic songs with girls in the background basically going 'shoop doop' kind of threw me off. He ended with a almost completely a cappella version of Flightless Bird. It was goood.


The same Anne and I decided to go to Coachella this year. At least 6 other nurses I work with are also going. I don't think Palm Desert knows what it has gotten itself into.


I decided that perhaps Orange County is a little full of itself. I want to know where this poster got its info from. I highly doubt I actually live in 'the healthiest place on earth"


I drove up to Monterey to finally meet my 'nephew' Andinn. My best friend from college had her first son back in November and I am in love. I am so happy for my friends and this part of their life. A few years ago when Trav and Alexis were engaged and we were all roommates Alexis got a health scare. She came to a point where she may not have been able to have children if she didn't take the opportunity right then. She and I cried together and talked for a long time when the news came. She was ready to sacrifice a lot in order to start their family together, she so wanted to carry her own child. Luckily, the health issue passed and she and Trav waited and finished college, got married, moved back home to Monterey and bought a house together. Almost exactly one year ago Alexis had the same health scare. She called me sobbing, not knowing what to do. She, like most, worried they weren't ready to have kids but couldn't imagine not taking the opportunity before it was too late. I reminded her of the time in college, where they were in their life then. How they were ready to sacrifice everything to start a family together. Then I talked to her about where they were now. They owned a home, they both had careers and savings and so much family around. I told her we would all be so lucky if we were born into such stability. Even though they had that natural feeling of uncertainty, they were as ready as two people ever could be. Two months later I got a call that she was nearly two months pregnant. Fast forward to 10 days ago and I was holding my nephew. Alexis told me on that visit that our phone conversation is what made them go forward and do it. Literally. I have never seen two more natural parents. I am a proud 'auntie.' 


So, to connect the beginning of this long post to the end: For some reason when I hit the 101 just before Spreckles on my drives to Monterey I always feel compelled to put on Iron and Wine's "Our Endless Numbered Days." The cloud capped hills, endless wine vineyards and naked trees just call for simple, beautiful music much like the scenery. I think that's why I was semi-disappointed with last night's performance. There is something about acoustic guitar and meaningful lyrics that speaks to me more than the big band sound. I didn't really feel that nostalgia I expected, but such is life. I am sufficed with playing his old albums as I type :) 



1.25.2011

Another way of myspace flashbacking...

Found this on the interwebz (Paste Magazine) and yet again, many of us probably could fit ourselves into this well thought out time line. BTW I definitely had a friend who got and maxed out a credit card in order to buy a Vespa in 2004 (she may or may not be a very well known wedding photographer now *ahem*). I was insanely jealous.... click to see it full sized.

1.23.2011

I rarely have lazy Sundays

I decided I wanted to have a photobooth session with the pup but alas, he is in the midst of his nap. I only got these two shots before he plopped down in my lap (where he is still sleeping)



My legs are so dead already but I can't pass up the rare full on cuddles. Lazy Sunday it is. 

1.15.2011

Unwanted hangouts

I feel like I just spent the last 2 days with this...


... and if you ever watched the show then you would know that I don't mean that in a positive way. Enough said. 

Plus...
LOLZ

1.13.2011

Slowly preparing

I'm finally starting to realize that the trip is getting close! Today I went and got *some* of the vaccines that the CDC recommends for where I am going. I made an appointment a month ago with the OC travel clinic and went to the appointment today. Little did I know that they only scheduled me to be seen by the nurse who gives the vaccines, not the Doctor who specializes in travel medicine! I am still in need of a prescription for antimalarial drugs and antibiotics. I did, however, get the polio booster, my last in the Hep A series since I don't have it documented that I finished it and typhoid. The typhoid thing is a bummer too because they couldn't give me the oral vaccine which is most effective, instead I had to get the shot! Oh well, I'm just going to have to be extra careful when I get there!


Preparing myself for two sore arms tomorrow :) 

I also started throwing random items in my luggage that I don't want to forget. As you can see, Bruiser has a hunch that something is going on. 


Note: I'd like to dream that I'll actually be taking that suitcase with me but it probably won't happen with me needing to bring 5 pairs of scrubs on top of clothes and other essentials. Oh well!

One on One

Yesterday Nathalie and I had one of our lovely lady dates. We switched up our usual routine (because we're wild!) and went to Pizza Fusion, Forever 21 and saw The Social Network. It was such a good day!

The pizza we got was vegan/gluten free and it was SO good. I am not a fan pizza normally because my stomach can't handle the grease & cheese and my mind can't handle the low quality meat. This vegan/gluten free version was hands down the best pizza I have ever had. We devoured it then split a black bean brownie. Yum! I love the feeling of being full without feeling sick to my stomach.





I haven't bought clothing from Forever 21 in a long time because I usually get too overwhelmed by the messiness and sheer amounts of clothing so I don't even go in. This location was so organized, I'm glad I went in because I actually found a few things! 





The Social Network was good too! Plus we only paid $3.50 for the tickets! It was a win-win! I <3 my lady dates with Nathalie! 





1.08.2011

A week into 2011 and I am totally confused

One week down and it has been a weird one. Well, specifically Thursday yanked me in a thousand directions. I woke up Thursday and took my huge certification exam in pediatric critical care. I have been studying for months and was extremely nervous, but I passed! This test is super hard and I was very proud of myself for successfully completing it! I of course called my mom and then my dad to tell them. I talked to my dad for about 15 minutes then went on with my day. Little did I know that my dad withheld from me that he woke up with almost all of his site gone in his left eye. Little details dad, little details... he honestly didn't think it was too big of a deal at that point.

A few hours later my older sister texted me that she got a job which she interviewed for before the holidays! I was so happy for her and her little family. Just more good news! I love you 2011! I was running errands and had Bruiser at Petsmart for his monthly grooming when I got a text from my mom saying she was taking my dad to the ER as he has lost a huge amount of vision in his left eye and it looks like his retina is detaching. And of course she threw in a little "don't want to worry you." Oh parents. Retinal detachment is a medical emergency; if the retina fully detaches you are left blind with no treatment options because the blood vessels that oxygenate your retina will be torn and the tissue dies.

Needless to say, I dropped what I was doing and drove straight to the hospital. As strange as it is, hospitals are my second home. I can't let someone I love be in a hospital setting without me being there. It's hard to know what questions to ask, what to expect, to know how you should be treated when you've never been in a hospital before. I have very high expectations and luckily do know what to expect, so obviously I stuck by my dad's side and did my best to be the daughter who happens to be a nurse. Not the nurse who is a daughter. I think I did a pretty good job of letting go of control and being there for him, while advocating, educating and asking questions in a totally appropriate manner. Who knows though, I may have been a nightmare ;)

Well, my poor dad sat in the ER and didn't see an ophthalmologist until about 11pm, and the decision to admit him and do surgery didn't come until about 1am. Then comes the waiting game of getting a bed on the surgical floor. He slept in the ER until something like 9 or 10 in the morning then got transferred. That night (Friday) he was supposed to go into surgery at 8pm, but as it always goes, he got pushed back   and I think didn't really go until something like 1130pm. He was hungry, tired, nauseous and nervous but he did a great job of holding it together. I asked the anesthesiologist a bunch of questions, the surgeon a bunch of questions and of course the nurse a bunch of questions. I don't think they were used to actually having to continue a conversation after asking "do you guys have any questions?" The surgery itself took nearly 3 hours. Can you believe that?! He had to have his retina banded, a portion of the tissue frozen and an air bubble inserted in hopes of keeping it from fully detaching in the future. He got back to his room around 130am and I got back to Orange County around 3am. He is now home and is on bed rest for TWO WEEKS! Seriously, as trivial as it may sound, it's serious stuff.

Did I mention he had to patch both of his eyes for the whole night and day before surgery? I think out of everything, that got to him the most.


We won't know about vision recovery until the healing process is done. He also is unable to move/open his eyelid right now and we're hoping that is just from swelling. I love my dad so much and it is hard to sit and watch him at the hands of a healthcare team and feel like I can't help him in the way that comes naturally to me. I wanted to start his IV, put his eye drops in, push his morphine, versed and zofran, check his vital signs and do an eye exam but alas, I couldn't! Instead I held his hand, sat by his side, massaged him when his headache was getting unbearable, helped him to the bathroom and asked every question I could think of. I think that's a daughter's duty. Besides when I helped push his gurney to surgery, maybe that was a little out of the realm for every day visitors but at least I felt useful! 

So anyways people, what else will come from 2011? If the year is anything like this week then I better fasten my seat belt and put on my preventative covering* because seriously, this shit could hurt. 

*

1.05.2011

Opening a time capsule I may regret- Link up!

Last week a few twitter folk and I went crazy and started releasing photos of ourselves back in the days of myspace. I didn't want to hold out on the blog world, so here you go. Is this a bad idea? It might be, but I have no care ever! P.S. I would really love it if other people decided to open up their time capsules! Feel free to leave a link to your post!



Unedited

Edited by random myspace friend

A classic

I may have been into desecrating strangers' lawn decorations. Completely sober.
Can we ignore that I'm sweating like a man?

Sidekick photos: so myspace age
In a box, in the back of Showcase Theatre.



Am I holding porn?! That looks like porn...

Mirror: check. Dressing room: check. Sidekick: check.





And for good measure:
Because who doesn't go to the gym in their 80s thong leotard?

This is just scratching the surface. I am not brave enough to put up some of them. Some things should just be forgotten about! 


1.01.2011

My first step into the Lomo world

Today I treated myself to a little gift...

A Mini Diana lomography camera! I am so excited to shoot on an analogue camera! I love this little baby so much already. In a world of instant gratification, going back to film forces you to shoot spontaneously and takes away your ability to erase what you don't like. There's no re-do! I am currently working on my first roll of film to just get used to the camera, trying out different settings and whatnot. I am shooting my first roll in square format then the next I will try in split frame!

Taking this with me to India will hopefully help me capture some inspirational images!


Do any of you use a camera like this? What are some tips for us newbies? I honestly am not looking or expecting to turn into some exceptional photographer but wouldn't mind some tips and tricks!